Daily shots

I have moved from Coping Court to Struggle Street. The daily shots are both painful, nauseating and exhausting. It is the worst I have felt in the whole process.

The evenings before (starting on the night of day 5 before I had my first one, but has recurred each night) I have cramps that feel like period pain. I then take the daily injections pretty early in the morning, and am left feeling drained and sick for the rest of the day. The needle is fat enough that it bruises and puckers the skin on the way in and out.

The emotional rollercoaster has also started. It’s an odd feeling when it comes with consciousness. I am fully aware of the extreme fluctuations and am trying to be present in them and wait them out without extreme actions. Sounds so simple, right?

I’m still so excited and thankful for the opportunity, but now starting to understand some of the pitfalls, and why someone may hesitate for round 2.

Nothing worth having ever comes easily, and success will be all the sweeter. I hope!

#emotional #awareness #pain