Ready, steady, wait...

Confirmation that our time has come. I couldn’t sleep last night from a combination of cramps and thinking about this opportunity. I call it an opportunity from fear of not being able to manage my own expectations. If I think of this as the last ‘woman’s week’ I’ll have for 9+ of months, it puts too much pressure on. I have to think of this as one very expensive opportunity that lots of couples don’t get.

So I have spoken to our nurse about my schedule, and planned the next 6 days out (working out what injections, scans and blood test are when and where). I am intimidated about tomorrow night’s injection, as it’s about $1,800 of drugs in a spring retractable syringe (in other words, if you stuff it up, your F#$%ed).

I just have to convince my brain that worrying about it now wont achieve anything. I think I’m more likely to be swayed by the fact that worrying gives you wrinkles. This pug should have taken that advice on board…

#planning #cost #selfdoubt #worry