Introduction

This is the blog page of a 'normal' woman processing a new reality. Though I’m not really sure what a 'normal' woman is - I am emotive, logical, practical, curious, and a multitude of other adjectives... perhaps as a normal woman i am better described as complex, but somehow this feels like it’s a negative label.

So my normal complex self is processing. I'm researching, talking and understanding how I can get what I want in a different way.

What I want is an addition to my family. This is usually natural process that most couples don’t have too much trouble with. However, we have had trouble.

Time and in-depth investigations have led to a diagnosis. The diagnosis led us to IVF – our new reality.

This new reality is logical. It makes sense and is exciting that IVF is an option for many women, including me. I have many things to be thankful for in this regard. Things could be much worse.

I am stoked for the opportunity we have, and logically it is the next step. Why doesn’t the emotive side of me get on board the same way?

In this blog I will provide updates about how the days, milestones and events unfold, and inevitably the challenges that arise and how this normal complex woman responds to it.

Since I doubt this dribble will be worth reading for anyone other than my future self, this is a diary of my though progress (not process, but progress…because I believe there will be) and also in order to help out anyone else who may ever struggle with this same thing.

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